And that is always Varian's problem. It's been his problem long before he washed up on the shores of Trench and before he appeared in the dream of Deerington. It's been a problem that's dogged him for as long as he understood the concept. Not being enough. Not being enough for his father, his village, Rapunzel, Eugene, Cassandra. For everyone and anyone.
She's right, it is a hard lesson to learn and he wants to rail against it. They're the same thing, of course, they are. And not being enough is just...awful. He knows, heknows she's right and he hates it. He very almost just...switches the Omni off to try and ignore all of this, to wallow in his self-hatred instead. The little '...' dances around the screen for a while.
He knows it's not healthy to ignore this, though.]
I hate not being enough.
[Something he doesn't really need to tell her, she's more than aware of almost every horrible turn in his story. ]
It makes me feel like I don't deserve him. And I know that's stupid and he'd disagree with that ALL the way. I know thinking that isn't right and it's only making things worse for me. I GET that.
[Because his friends and loved ones have laid that lecture down on him more than enough now.]
I guess it's just really hard to shake. Feeling like not being enough is... I don't know. A reflection on me.
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And that is always Varian's problem. It's been his problem long before he washed up on the shores of Trench and before he appeared in the dream of Deerington. It's been a problem that's dogged him for as long as he understood the concept. Not being enough. Not being enough for his father, his village, Rapunzel, Eugene, Cassandra. For everyone and anyone.
She's right, it is a hard lesson to learn and he wants to rail against it. They're the same thing, of course, they are. And not being enough is just...awful. He knows, heknows she's right and he hates it. He very almost just...switches the Omni off to try and ignore all of this, to wallow in his self-hatred instead. The little '...' dances around the screen for a while.
He knows it's not healthy to ignore this, though.]
I hate not being enough.
[Something he doesn't really need to tell her, she's more than aware of almost every horrible turn in his story. ]
It makes me feel like I don't deserve him. And I know that's stupid and he'd disagree with that ALL the way. I know thinking that isn't right and it's only making things worse for me. I GET that.
[Because his friends and loved ones have laid that lecture down on him more than enough now.]
I guess it's just really hard to shake. Feeling like not being enough is... I don't know. A reflection on me.
[On his own worth.]