If you're getting this now it means I'm likely already gone. Things haven't felt right since--- [ Since the fight with Maul. John's been left with a lot of soul-searching and a lot more questions. Never mind the tug and pull of the waves out there. ]Doesn't matter now.
You've always had a big heart. Done your best to be there for everyone. For me too. I want you to know that it meant a lot what you said before. It's hard for me to admit it about what people---what a person like me deserves in the long run but I'm trying to do better at it. I want to believe those things. That I can be the kind of person that deserves more. A mutual friend said maybe I've got to look to what others think that is for me first instead of only throwing myself down that rabbit hole first.
I don't think where that leads is here anymore. Funny old life.
I know I can't talk you out of running yourself ragged taking care of all the others but I am asking you to put yourself a little higher on the list of your own priorities. Strange as it is coming from me of all people: you deserve that.
On a brighter note, I'm no good at baking desserts or anything but I'm a fair hand at enchanting things. So the plate you dropped biscuits off for me in should appear around the same time as this. If you don't feel like making something for yourself, just ask what you'd like and it should be able to manage it so long as it's not too complicated. It's the least I could do.
this letter shows up at any time after the start of april.
If you're getting this now it means I'm likely already gone. Things haven't felt right since--- [ Since the fight with Maul. John's been left with a lot of soul-searching and a lot more questions. Never mind the tug and pull of the waves out there. ]Doesn't matter now.
You've always had a big heart. Done your best to be there for everyone. For me too. I want you to know that it meant a lot what you said before. It's hard for me to admit it about what people---what a person like me deserves in the long run but I'm trying to do better at it. I want to believe those things. That I can be the kind of person that deserves more. A mutual friend said maybe I've got to look to what others think that is for me first instead of only throwing myself down that rabbit hole first.
I don't think where that leads is here anymore. Funny old life.
I know I can't talk you out of running yourself ragged taking care of all the others but I am asking you to put yourself a little higher on the list of your own priorities. Strange as it is coming from me of all people: you deserve that.
On a brighter note, I'm no good at baking desserts or anything but I'm a fair hand at enchanting things. So the plate you dropped biscuits off for me in should appear around the same time as this. If you don't feel like making something for yourself, just ask what you'd like and it should be able to manage it so long as it's not too complicated. It's the least I could do.
You're a bright spark, don't lose that here.
Take care, Usagi,
John Constantine