[She knows him far too well. This has been something that's been bothering him since he found out. Something Fern tried to nip in the bud, but it's stayed there in the back of his mind, festering quietly. ]
I'm glad Luz was there to help him, really, I am. I'm glad we can rely on each other because that's important.
But he's supposed to be able to rely on me. I might have had all that going on, but he was hurting and I was too wrapped up in my own mess to notice. What does that say about me? I just feel like a failed him when he needed me the most.
Fern told me it's just something we both need to be sorry for and move on but I don't know. I can't shake the feeling that I should have noticed something. I'm supposed to be the person that knows him the best and I didn't know that.
We can work on this now, but what if something else happens in the future and I don't notice that, either? What if it's something even more serious next time?
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I'm glad Luz was there to help him, really, I am. I'm glad we can rely on each other because that's important.
But he's supposed to be able to rely on me. I might have had all that going on, but he was hurting and I was too wrapped up in my own mess to notice. What does that say about me? I just feel like a failed him when he needed me the most.
Fern told me it's just something we both need to be sorry for and move on but I don't know. I can't shake the feeling that I should have noticed something. I'm supposed to be the person that knows him the best and I didn't know that.
We can work on this now, but what if something else happens in the future and I don't notice that, either? What if it's something even more serious next time?