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I'd like to find him a mate here so he'll be less lonely. And he'll make a wonderful father if he can find someone to have his children. I want to him to have a lot of kits......ten or so ought to do it.

[Look at Maul over here, wanting his brother to settle down and have a family. But he knows Savage well-enough to have seen this could be a good idea for his brother, especially after the glimpse of a life that could have been for him on Dathomir some months ago.]

He sounds charming. [Maul means that sincerely, Shingo sounds like an amusing little kid.] I can see why you two care about one another. Though somehow I find it hard believing you could be a problem for anyone.

[But the rest of that he understands quite well.]

My mother played clear favorites with her sons. I was her heir, the one with the most potential, the one she loved and cared about the most. Savage was the spare one but at least she saw him as useful. Feral...... [He closes his eyes, thinking of what cost his mother had considered necessary to bring him home. His youngest brother's life. That was something he'd never gotten to discuss with Talzin and now he never will. His mother's mysterious motivations were her own.] .....well, she saw him as weak and useless. And what my mother didn't find useful she didn't care about.

Is that what he wants, though? To have all those kids? Because we both know Savage, if you tell him "go have kids" he's going to do it, and that's gonna be 12 miserable people because you told him to do something not because he wanted something.

[She knows Savage can be a good dad, she experienced it personally, but that doesn't change that not everyone wanted children.

As Maul explains his mother, she has to wonder why even have a third child then but maybe it wasn't something she could decide. Talzin didn't seem like the sort to let others decide things for her, though.]

I'm sorry to hear that about Savage and Feral. Despite all the problems I caused, I never doubted my mother's love.

[He pauses a moment before he tells Usagi of what had happened.]

He and I had the chance to see a life that could have been for him some months ago. He was on Dathomir with a mate and quite a number of daughters. He was happy and content there. It made me realized what he might be giving up to always focus on what I want instead. Oftentimes, he needs prodding to see what he might want.

[Hence Maul's desire to find him a mate and have a bunch of kits. It was a foolproof plan. No way this could go wrong!]

It was not the best she could have gone about treating us but she always had her own way of doing things. There was always plans and mysteries she had going on that we knew nothing about.

[At the end of the month there is a cane left at her door. The note attached to it says 'I heard it's your birthday'.]

Edited (trying a different image link) 2022-06-11 22:06 (UTC)

[She smiles and at the thought of Savage being happy.] He'd make a really good dad. Can your species have children with other species or only uh, night sisters?

He needs prodding because you said yourself, he was seen as the spare. So why should he want something for himself if he was made to believe he was meant to take your place if something went wrong?

I hate mysteries. [She offers honestly.] And no, not JUST because I suck at solving them.

Zabrak can crossbreed with most other nearly-humanoid and human species. That's how the Nightkin on Dathomir got started. Settlers on the planet in the form of Zabrak males interbred with human females for a very long time until a whole separate subspecies got started.

[He nods slowly at what she says about Savage.]

You are right there. I try to give him gentle nudging sometimes but when that doesn't work it takes firm shoving in the direction of what I think he wants instead. He has his own desires, he just doesn't verbalize them very often.

[He looks a little amused when Usagi mentions hating mysteries.]

I grew used to it after being raised by two people who thrived on being mysterious and keeping people guessing at all times.

[Maul's tone is surly and sulky.]

I tried apologizing to him and he thought I wasn't being sincere. That was horrible. I'm not doing it again.

[Apologizing, he means. Yes, Usagi had told him this could happen, but he still hadn't liked it. Maul's still primary motivation to do things is what's in it for him. It was what has kept him alive all this time, so stunted as that motivation is, he's not willing to do things out of the kindness of his heart just yet.

All this had gotten him was Anakin going on and on about how he couldn't accept responsibility for his actions. Well, he wasn't doing that again, no way no how.]

Well. Now that I'm certain I'm contacting the right person.

[ And no one would ever know the contents of the previous, utterly embarrassing conversation. Ever. ]

Help me, Usagi. You're my only hope.

Who did you text before? Also what's up? Everything okay?

Reaper. Because why not.

[ His frustration probably comes through in text. ]

Sort of? And sort of not? I'm realizing I'm an absolute disaster when it comes to relationships and I don't know what to do.

You texted Reaper for relationship advice?...... Why?

Oh. No. It was worse.

I CALLED him.

Thinking I was calling YOU.

Because I lost control of my emotional state that bad.

[Usagi is not entirely sure how that's possible considering her user name and Reapers user name are nowhere alike nor are their names, but that clearly means Luke is REALLY panicked.]

Okay, well, you're very much texting me now, do you want to switch to a proper call?

That might be a good idea. I keep struggling to type right because my fingers are still shaking.

[Usagi starts up the video call and waves but bites her lip.]

Just how worried do I need to be about you right now? You ARE okay, right?

[She opened her eyes, not falling for it.]

Were you sincere? [She lifted a brow.] I'm not going to ask if you have sincerely apologized for everything you've done to him. You actually like ME and you've barely apologized for half of the stuff you've pulled.

But apologies aren't for you, Maul. They're for the person you wronged. If Palpatine came here and apologized with a [And here Usagi did her best to make her voice creepy and croaky.] "Sorry I tortured you as a kid... I guess." [She goes back to her normal voice.] Would you let THAT be enough? Would you go, oh, of COURSE, Palpatine, EVERYTHING EVER is forgiven! We can be besties now!

[ There's a little huff in response. Yes, she supposes it was. But she honestly just sounds exhausted. For a long time she can't really say anything. She's not quite sure where she even starts with something like this. ]

I suppose this is... what happens when you join in a war. The terrible things that happen in it will come out, eventually. [ It's not fair. ] I didn't want to really tell people because... sometimes I think there's things that are too painful to speak about. It would hurt them to know how I've been hurt, you know?

But now it's... out there.

Neat. Lunarians can breed with other humanoid species too. Although, it used to be forbidden by the laws of our galaxy for us to even... think about being with humans. We weren't supposed to interfere with them, ya know? [They were a baby species still growing and advancing, her being in love with Endymion...] It'll be different in the future, though. [Well... sorta.]

Well, I have my thoughts as to why he doesn't verbalize anything.

Still a hard pass. Although, for a while there I was the Soldier of Mystery. [But that was because no one knew who the hell Sailor Moon was and her actual identity.]

Mnn, I suppose it is, I... [She takes a deep breath] I was made to join a war too. I'm sorry that I found out this way regarding your memories. The people who get hurt... they only get that way because of how much they love you. People never want their loved ones hurt.

But, we don't have to talk about anything you aren't ready to discuss. Just because I've seen it, it doesn't mean you should be forced to discuss it if you're not ready.

But I'm here no matter what, Luna.

[ For his part, Luke looked fine, except for the fact that his face was still very red from his embarrassment. ]

Physically? Yes, I'm fine. My pride is the only thing that's been slaughtered right now.

[ Also his inbox, considering how many times Reaper has called him back right now, but that wasn't that important right now. ]

But besides that, Usagi, I think my love life is a disaster. I'm a disaster.

1. You're not a disaster 2. Why do you think you are? 3. What did you do to think your love life is a disaster?

[ Luke took a deep breath, struggling not to pour everything out like he had just before with Reaper. ]

There... is this guy that I met at the beginning of this month -- a new Sleeper awakened. He is... very pretty, to the point it's hard not to think of him, even when he's not around. He's distant, but... kind, in a way; I can feel how gentle and aware of others he is, but at the same time, he's... quiet. I don't get a feel for his emotions as easily as I do others, and it's comforting, in a way.

[ Another deep breath; stars above, he sounded like an idiot right now. ]

He stopped by, after I had a memory broadcasted over the omnis. He stayed with me as it started to rain, and I fell asleep on his shoulder. It's the first time since coming here I've... been able to sleep without nightmares, and I just can't get out of my head that it happened because I was curled up against him.

.... So the issue iiiiissss?

[ ...okay, now that panic was creeping back up. ]

I... I don't know what to do.

I-I feel like I'm falling in love, but I haven't really fallen for another man before -- well, maybe I had a small crush on Han, but I got over that quickly -- and I'm already dating Airy and I just don't know what I'm supposed to do about this at all!?

[ He had steadily started to ramble at the last part, to the point where his voice went high pitched toward the end. ]

So first, take a deeeeeeep breath, iiiiin and oooouttt... [She does it too since she knows that people tend to mimic someone with their breathing.]

Second, before we discuss you being in love with someone else, does Airy know about this guy?

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